9 May 2008

Today started out with me plunging a knife into my thumb and in the process spilling milk all over and banging my forehead on the cupboard ( a now have a large bump), it is ending with my washing being stuck in the laundry room. Not to mention the fact that I left a packet of shopping on the tram that contained among other things my WUJS flask, a new mousse, soap, stockings, (the first time I had replenished my toiletries). Its been a bad day! However actually these things didn’t really get to me frustrated rather its my problem is my dumb attitude. My dam indecisiveness that seems to for a while been at bay has come back to haunt me. For ages, I’ve known it’s a long weekend but then when faced with one or two options as to what to do I couldn’t pick and now have not organised anything-Grrr Im so irritated at myself! Ill probably do something on Sunday but it all basically comes down to my symptoms of FOMA that clearly haven’t abated since I got here. I’m so scared of missing out, of choosing the wrong option that I land up paralysed and unable to decide. I feel like one option is the right option and am torn between the two wanting to ensure I make the correct choice. I wish I could just decide and go with it, but when I do then I’m plagued with doubt, did I make the right decision. I’ve now decided to stay in Geneva for Shabbas and travel to Basel or Lucern on Sunday (that is assuming I can decide where by then.) Yet I sit here thinking am I being boring should I have just gone to Basel? The truth is its now irrelevant because my clothing is stuck in a locked room in a tumble dryer down stairs. (I knew this would happen the one in the room I had keys to wasn’t working so I asked the guy next door to leave his unlocked-it is no longer so!)